my so called existence
I came across a friend's teenage sister's blog the other day. ahh .. the typical i-hate-myself-my family-my life-and-wanna-die kinda blog. Ahh what hatred and angst. it made me smile. not far back i was that whiny teenager too. I hated my family for not trusting me, not giving enough money and independence. I hated myself for never having enuff money and was too lazy. blah blah. Just wanted to die cos life’s not fair.Yadda yadda. Teenage life sucked. And I always had friends who felt to same.
Somehow we moved on and got on with our lives. We grew up. We found our love partner, got a job, got married and made babies. Responsibility and commitments overwhelmed us. I’m no longer that teenager. Time woke me up. I’m so happy with my life now. So happy. I have the love of my husband, my baby and my family. The parents that I thot hated my actually loved me to bits and really cared. Money is never enough til now but now we make do with what we have, working more if we wanted more. J
Just glad I didn’t kill myself back then. J It would have been so not worth it, Now I look at my son, wondering will he go thru that teenage phase too one day thinking I hate him for not giving him enough money nor independence. Well .. its just a phase. I’ll worry when I approach the bridge.
Updates on Kajang Clan.
My sisters are still on cloud nine cos Mawi won. The concert nite was so entertaining for me. Not on watching astro but watching my sisters. They bought dinner at 6. pizzas and KFC. Quite a party (for me n papa) Then they gathered and rooted on. When the announcement was made, they were jumping up and down, covering their eyes unsure that Mawi will make it or not. Supposedly, a conspiracy is in the make to make felix the winner. J it was hilarious. Well, the nite became theirs n mawi.
Even hazim’s caught the fever. Each time one of us tertekan channel 15, he would crawl to sit in front of the tv and watch without blinking. Papa said he’s just awed with the music and colours but deep down papa knows that he’s doomed being the only one not in the fever. He thot once the academy is over, lega. NO! it never ends papa. Just bear with it dear.
Hazim’s still not walking yet but we’re savouring the moment cos even I can feel a bit loss of weight having to run after him a lot. He’s eating more solids now and alhamdulillah he loves his fruits. We’re hoping to go for a holiday this weekend. Wonder how hazim will enjoy the long drive. Still haven’t planned whereto.
For mak lang, get well soon so u can stop 100 plusing.
Too much said.
Somehow we moved on and got on with our lives. We grew up. We found our love partner, got a job, got married and made babies. Responsibility and commitments overwhelmed us. I’m no longer that teenager. Time woke me up. I’m so happy with my life now. So happy. I have the love of my husband, my baby and my family. The parents that I thot hated my actually loved me to bits and really cared. Money is never enough til now but now we make do with what we have, working more if we wanted more. J
Just glad I didn’t kill myself back then. J It would have been so not worth it, Now I look at my son, wondering will he go thru that teenage phase too one day thinking I hate him for not giving him enough money nor independence. Well .. its just a phase. I’ll worry when I approach the bridge.
Updates on Kajang Clan.
My sisters are still on cloud nine cos Mawi won. The concert nite was so entertaining for me. Not on watching astro but watching my sisters. They bought dinner at 6. pizzas and KFC. Quite a party (for me n papa) Then they gathered and rooted on. When the announcement was made, they were jumping up and down, covering their eyes unsure that Mawi will make it or not. Supposedly, a conspiracy is in the make to make felix the winner. J it was hilarious. Well, the nite became theirs n mawi.
Even hazim’s caught the fever. Each time one of us tertekan channel 15, he would crawl to sit in front of the tv and watch without blinking. Papa said he’s just awed with the music and colours but deep down papa knows that he’s doomed being the only one not in the fever. He thot once the academy is over, lega. NO! it never ends papa. Just bear with it dear.
Hazim’s still not walking yet but we’re savouring the moment cos even I can feel a bit loss of weight having to run after him a lot. He’s eating more solids now and alhamdulillah he loves his fruits. We’re hoping to go for a holiday this weekend. Wonder how hazim will enjoy the long drive. Still haven’t planned whereto.
For mak lang, get well soon so u can stop 100 plusing.
Too much said.
posted by mama ajim @ 2:45 PM
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