for you dear

i really2 love this song. this one is for u papa. u mean so much to me. my husband, bestfriend n lover. You're always in my heart. BERTAKHTA DI HATI Dihempas ombak Terdampar buih Menanti waktu pulang ke laut Begitu rindu Dipisah takdir Meniti saat bersulam cinta Lihat lihat Sinarnya menyala Lihat lihat Ke dalam mataku Cintamu bertakhta di hati Sebelum ku kenal Dirimu siapa Aku tak kenali Apa itu cinta Setelah ku kenal Dirimu siapa Kau cinta sejati Ku sandarkan jiwa Digilis angin Tercarik awan Menanti detik sebelum hujan Begitu sendu Diguris resah Meniti hari bersulam tangis Takkan berganjak pendirian ku ini Selagi kita tak kembali bersatu Selamanya Takkan berubah perasaanterhadapmu Biar digugat Biar dicabar Biar dihalang

2 wonderful years

I'm writin this using pak su tan's pc. i wonder if he'll freak out knowin i did. naah! no worries bout the billing cos its streamyx. thats why i'm enjoyin the smooth sailing speed. so fast. gotta change my template too. back to business. today cukop 2 tahun papa n me got married. macam tak percaya je dah 2 tahun papa! sekejap je. mula2 seorang pastu 2 org and now 3 org. :) i must say dua tahun ni adalah the best years in my life. i'd swap it for nothin. its such a treasure that i'd die rather than not having it. adanya papa n hazim, dunia ni lagi cerah dan bahagia. of course kita hidup tak perfect, ada ups n downs, ada macam macam problem but happiness yg mama rasa sekrg means so much to me. thank u papa for entering my world. i love you now and will keep on lovin u till my last breath. until the ocean doesnt touch the sand. terasa teramat kental skrg ni. :) haha so pejam celik, sekejap je rasa time passes. and how tahun ni byk dah berubah, our rezeki Alhamdullillah bertambah dgn adanya Hazim. compared to last year, we are by far luckier and more happier. saaaaaaaayang hazim and papa. hazim news? gigi atas dah more visible. wants to eat everything but his food. so i'm giving him more bubur than his nestum. gettin more active that mama mcm nak pengsan everynite lepas dia tidur at nite. i must start disciplining him now that he understands us more, else he'll be an overindulged brat! don't want that. getting louder cos he so wants to speak. thats my angel. masa hazim lahir, ada kawan papa yg had a baby too. now they're having another, dah 3 months along. gosh. anak memang rezeki but we chose to let hazim grow up first with our fullest attention and love. I want to let my tummy to rest after my c-sect and havin super active ajim, I can't imagine bein pregnant again cos it'll be really extra tiring. well, congrats to them tho. :)

I am reading marian keyes latest book, 'the other side of the strory' and havin a blast but since i can only read when hazim's asleep, am goin kinda slow. :( dyin to read the latest HPotter book tho. wonder when can i get my copy? hmmm.

ciaO

what a colourful world

its been a while

guess its been awhile since i last wrote here .. like anybody's reading it. :)

well .. so many things have happened since that its kinda overwhelming and i just dunno how to put them in words.

atuk nyang hazim passed away last june. a week before opah nyang's 1st year's demise. i must say that everyone's just in a sombre mood. we're not goin anywhere (hols) nor celebrating much. most events like birthdays and such are celebrated moderately. so was me n papa's birthday last week. I just didnt feel like having fun. happy birthday to papa n myself.

when opah passed away, we still had atuk to cling on .. to be there for us with all that memories n stuff, hazim loved his tok nyang so much. but now, both of them are gone so i just miss them crazy. i miss the company and i'm so damned mad at myself for not cherishing the time i had with them. I was so caught up with myself and growing up. now typically, i regret it. i wonder if ajim still remembers his anyang.

huda's gone too. i mean she left for her studies. not far . just 10 mins from here. the house is kinda lonely and quiet now.

hazim? gosh! he's a handful but a much welcome one. i guess i can still handle him. he's getting smarter by the day. he's more cheeky but my heart just skips a beat as i watch him grow. he can stand now but with something to hang on too. a screamer. crazy bout goin out for a drive even if its just pickin up the kids. he can crawl and gettin faster by day that soon he'll be gettin speedin tickets. :) thats my boy. caught a fever yesterday and givin him his meds is a toughie. gosh! hazim hazim. i love you baby ..

i'll try to write more frequently.