hazim and his dramas

he's turnin 2 in a week. my baby is so grown up know and can talk .. I still see you like u just a lil babe. just like this. i'll love u till the ocean doesnt touch the sand.

hazim can be such a drama king sometimes. plus a crybaby. urghh .. me n papa just hafta succumb to his needs bcos during the day he'll be pampered and indulged to death by opah, tokki and his aunts so now he knows that he can get away with murder. how mr. bossypants he has become. I must find a way to stop this from getting worse. What hazim wants hazim gets. Sometimes i do feel guilty cos I'm away most of the time, I bring work back home and I also hate being the curmudgeon mother but if things dont stop now, he'll be a spoilt brat and I must say he's way ahead that path.

There only 2 solutions:

1. move out

2. give him a brother or sibling

Sad to say these are not options at the moment. I still have my study to finish and someone hasta take care of hazim during the day. It will kill me too to separate ajim n the clan at this age. guess i hafta be more stern (like that would happen, I cant even control 42 form 1 students, let alone my son) urgh .. one blessing though, u wont see his dramas cos he's such an angel infront others esp. other bratz.

the taman negara trip was ok. we got to stay in a chalet so papa said its like a vacation from me. curbed my anger and anxiety a bit. I didnt know jungles could appeal to u til I stepped into our national parks. Despite bein dead tired, I enjoyed all the activities especially soakin in the cool river n rapid shootin. And also bein with friends i know I wont meet again after all the hoopla ends. Its been a long time since my last slumber party an best gak sleepin late talkin and talkin. What shocking news u cud find out. Guess its been awhile. Thanks en baha for a significant experience and man u were rite bout it bein a once in a lifetime thing. No way I'm gonna spend a vacation with kids in a jungle or takin boat rides along the river. Not that adventurous. Maybe when hazim is older (like secondary school). missed papa and ajim like mad tho and somehow heard they had great fun without me. huh?

a kopitiam just opened in our neighbourhood. Checkin it out tonite. Hopefully it'll turn out good cos i love kopitiams and havin one near is what i want.

I sooo love rihanna's song. Unfaithful. but the 'I dont wanna be a murderer .. ' part .. kinda tacky.