hazim and december changes

Always the centre of attention

Girls plus pakchu kat tepi just wanna have fun

*warning: I'm in a sappy mood so this entry is gonna be long

These picchas were taken at nana's goin to hajj partay. (Tho I wont consider wearin baju kurung as party wear) As always we have such fun when all of us get 2gether and piccha takin is a MUST. U never know when u need to look back and appreciate the happy memories that u have gone thru some time in ur life plus family always drifts apart sooner or later, these treasures will take u back to the lost happy days. How sappy but december just makes me feel sad. Its the last month of the year and new year will bring big changes in our lives that it just makes me melancholic. How I wish 2006 will go on n go on .. I enjoyed it so much that its so hard to let go .. I just dread 2007.

May ajim's nana, tokchu and om gets the hajj mabrur and comes back safe n sound.

Lets leave the blues for awhile and update on hazim ..

Gosh .. what can I say .. the past week has really been both fun and testing for me .. He swipes opah's baju out of her closet just to pretend that its mack-his trailer.. (still crazy about CARs) so everyday, Opah hasta refold her clothes but since its hazim's doing, sabar jelah. I wonder until when her patience will stand.

hazim's most overused phrase must be 'tak nak kawan' this past week and he says it million times a day .. imagine our typical discourse:

mama: ajim jom mandi

ajim: tak nak kawan!

mama: ajim makan nak?

ajim: tak nak kawan!

mama: ajim jom pergi warta, mama nak pergi mcDs

ajim: jom.nak mcdunald, tak nak kawan!

I wish i can erase it from him but sometimes it does get hilarious. Another phrase he just picked up is panashla from a shampoo ad featuring hindustani actors. When its freezing in our room, its still panashla. Funny how kids pick up stuff they quite dunno the meaning but they learn as they go. Tho his speech is still gibberish at times, I love talking to him and this hols has been more meaningful seeing him growing up so fast.

So I left the place of good memories for me for good last early dec. I didnt get to say goodby officially but will do during convo. Again I leave the small college that brought such happy memories and the good friends I made along the way. . Funny how I looked back at the pics during matrix in 96, my english class taken by the stairs, how young and innocent(hah!) I was, wearing shoes I loved having worn it most of the year and having so much fun entering adulthood. Then comparing it with IPBA 2006, the same place, different ppl and I still have fun and still loving shoes and still with good friends. Will I be goin back in another decade? How I wish. That place will always have a special place in my heart and the happy memories will I keep with me. i remain sanguine tho myopic at times.

I wish I can still wake up and jump in papa's car and head for that place, bein late as usual, then up the spiral- breathtaking-asthmatic neverending stairs into our class, admire the clothes and again shoes then head out to pak langs for munchies then pretend to listen attentively to lectures then pic snapping-gossip mongering and then head back after lunch again talkin and talking til papa picks me up at the end of the day. Perhaps .. perhaps .. but naah.. hafta move on n see where fate takes me .. whether down south(God forbid) or staying put here as I have always made sure of .. we'll just wait and see

to u girls (u know who u are)

Listen little child

There will come a day

When you will be able, able to say

Never mind the pain, all the aggravation

You know there's a better way

For you and me to be

Look for the rainbow in every storm

Fly like an angel heaven sent to me

Goodbye my friend(i know you're gone, you said you're gone but i can still feel youHere)

It's not the end(you gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)

So glad we made it, time will never change it, no no

Just a little girl, big imagination

Never letting no one take it away

Went into the world, what a revelation

She found there's a better way for you and me to be

Look for the rainbow in every storm

Find out for certain love's gonna be there for you

You'll always be someone's baby

Goodbye my friend(i know you're gone, you said you're gone but i can still feel youHere)

It's not the end(you gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)

*suddenly felt like a spice girl :)

to sarah n dinah, I know u girls sometimes check out hazim's progress in here and just wanna tell u that I heard about what went on in ur lives. remember that ur family esp this big sis of urs will always be there for u no matter what. u know the song by mariah-thru the rain-? I heard it just today n thot of u girls. "I can make it through the rain..I can stand up once again..On my own and I know..That I'm strong enough to mend..And every time I feel afraid..I hold tighter to my faith..And I live one more day..And I make it through the rain..

Just hang out tite k n pray that Allah gives u the strength, serenity and patience to let go of what love most and prepare for the good things that u have yet to endeavour and experience. I know my trials and tribulations are ahead of me but our family love is strong and I'm not alone. God.. how we miss opah n atuk so much kan?

peace out til next time

p/s: ain bought cosmo n I just bought galaxie, what does that mean.. anybody? times like these, i just gotta love paris'-nothing in this world.

hazim and his emancipation

hazim now has his balls all tucked good in its place .. for those who didnt know the situation b4, lets just say that it was elsewhere.

anyways eversince, he's more active that usual and much more talkative. guess he's overexcited that mom's around. just a bit handful but i'm learning to control him by the day and now i salute opah for doin a good job this pass year. i'll be takin over the rein pretty soon and kinda anticipating it to turn out with flyin colours.

moms news: not getting the charmed life i've been havin b4 after all. i just got news of my placement and i'll most probably be heading south after this. kinda bummed cos most of the others got their hometown but thats their rezeki .. and i'll dont know whats ahead of me. we never see the silver lining that Allah has planned for us till the eleventh hour so another anticipation and great expectations comin ahead. just worried about papa tho. if my appeal (cam court case plak) turns sour .. i hafta pack up everything and head down south laa plak .. dem. at least i know pit's there .. urgh .. dunt wanna think about it for the mo.

fav song of the hour my chemical romance .. the black parade .. cos ajim can belt it out .. dead surprised when he sang it in the car one day.

To carry on

We'll carry on

Though you're dead and gone believe me

Your memory will carry on

We'll carry on

And though you're broken and defeated

reading jane green's life swap .. cannot put it down .. i wonder if i get the same chance , who will i swap my life with .. most unlikely i will .. i've experienced almost everything ..

cinta was great .. felt said bout the teacher part .. it feels so good 2b a teacher .. ain n me was really proud but wonder if ppl will treat us well like that when we grow old .. ain maybe .. but me??

peace out!