hazim and his eid

i think i can fit into the camera ..

i must admit that i'm being a tad overwhelmed with hazim lately. my .. my .. the older he gets, the more testing he is .. i guess I'm finally seeing the downside of me working compared to my domestic manager days .. he is less attached to me and when I'm home .. he seeks attention by throwing tantrums or behaving unbecomingly .. despite so .. after his naughty acts, he'll be begging for forgiveness speedily and turn back to bein my angel .. ajim .. ajim .. how its hard for mama to stick to her principles around u .. all my resolutions in good parenting out the window. i still love u more each day muchkins .. my ava adore ..

well our raya turned out swell .. i got evrything i wanted (shows how much raya means to me) and got to do the raya rounds and open house visits .. satisfied all family members .. penat jugak but hafta commit cos hazim must know all his unc, aunts, cousins, toks and so forth .. so friends were kinda left out til after exam. terrible me didnt even peek my revision books till the raya hols ended then still had time to have friends over for raya prior 2 days to the exam ... somehow .. miraculously i had enough time to cover all .. all the time wide awake paying attention in class was worth it .. some did stick in my mind .. after exam .. got kissm to attend so had fun shopping for its bag and shoes .. how its a must for me .. now everybody's runnin off to get new shoes for kissm .. teha n lin wud understand .. shuz sistaz o mine ..

had another nostalgic moment just now after seein 604b girls having fun gyrating their bodies to shaggy .. gosh .. somehow i remembered the cool sistas at uni .. kak syd, kak wendy, kak hani(what isit with me and older ppl), anis and diha .. how cool our rooms were .. the overplayed cds (jika, life in mono, belinda carlisle, itsy bitsy tiny weenie yellow polkadot bikini).. the talcum poker, halloween parties and just hangin around .. reminisced our eating sessions, lookin at ppls shoes and bags, and so much more. all the girls have moved on and we will never be the same as in our youth but i'm proud to have known them and i really cherish those years .. we may not keep in touch with each other but how we we are still friends who have flown from our nest .. and grown from girls to women .. gosh how melancholic .. if i could have another day tho .. :(

we said our goodbyes to the achenese collegues last fri .. we'll remember u pur and oja .. how time flies .. i'm really gonna miss this phase of life of mine ..

so i'll be planting my fanny in a particular hall for the infamous kissm. not kiss me . trying to fight off stuckups, wet blankets and suckers for 2 weeks long .. all the best for me ..

despite bein an overplayed song .. i love mahakarya cinta and chasing cars ..

if I lay here .. if i just lay here ... would u lie with me and just forget the world ..

peace out!