8 months and counting

my son turned 8 months yesterday .. gosh how he has grown .. he can crawl, turnover, speak a very foreign language, stand halfway and lots more accomplishments that i'm very grateful i get to witness his growth so far .. i love you son .. so much ..

the other day, he was reaching for something he's not suppose to play with. I read somewhere that u can start disciplinin ur kida at the age of six months. so i said no and asked him to come over to me. surprisingly, he understood my tone and the order, as he dropped the thing and came to me smilingly. my son can understand. hopefully growing up to be a good boy. :)

his face has gone tembam again as it fills out day by day .. haritu kecut jap cos measles .. now he looks like his usual self .. alaaa anak mama .. he has his rosy cheeks best .. the ones i love to kiss each day .. i know one day mama will go back to work and won't be around you much during the day but bear in mind, mama will be thinkin of u all the time ..

this month for us will be grandparents goin overseas month .. atuk wan to beijing and tokki opah to germany .. hazim? to KLIA .. bestnya ..

miri became a city today .. teringat dgn kak hani .. i wonder where she is this moment .. she is no longer a phone call away .. :( how sad we have moved on and moved apart .. happy miri becoming a city kak hani ..

when will i get to update hazim's fotopages?

what we are, never changes. who we are never stop changes. *csi last nite*

my laziness will never stop.

reminiscing opah

this is my first year celebrating mothers day without my opah. she passed away because of breast cancer. next month will be a year she left us for good due to a failed breast removal op. she survived 2 cancers b4 but 20 years later, they found another lump. apparently, she couldn't handle the complications of a surgery and laid in coma for a week as her organs failed one by one. I was 6 months pregnant at that time. aside of reading Quran beside her, my biggest prayer was for her to hang on, live and see my firstborn, her great grand son. It never became.

this was not a typical year. my opah will receive bouquets of flowers from her four children without fail on mothers day. there will be the weekend gatherings and big events such as these will see pulut kuning and rendang (kalau rajin)/ kari daging(kalau tak larat) on the table. the favourite of everybody which no one can compete till today. of course i wish my mom happy mothers day and we celebrate it this year and i love her to bits but this year, my thots go to my opah. i still can't summon the will to go to her grave cos i still feel she's around. i can't imagine how my mom feels this year. i can never imagine not having mak near me .. motherhood made me more closer to her than ever.

as i watch hazim day by day, i wonder what it wud be like if opah was around. i bet she will pamper him crazy and can't get enuff of ajim but still be strict on the pantang n stuff. i can just wonder ..

i made a big decision today to take a big step, one that gives me shivers when i think about it. even if it is just a backup plan for next year, i'm actually petrified if i eventually hafta execute it. God, give me the strength and wisdom, to choose the right path in life. papa n hazim are always gonna be my first priority. that u must remember mama!

presenting mr. spots

i haven't been writing for quite some time cos gee how my week has been totally chaotic.

upm's famliy day was last last weekend and it was held in PD. Had a marvelous time cos tokki eventually got to show off his one n only grandson to his collegues and staff. had the typical sukaneka where the whole clan managed to grab a present each save mama n ajim. tamak acara betul. later on sunday, the rest of the family headed to umbai for ikan bakar treat but papa thot we better head home cos hazim was getting restless from the heat.

so on tuesday, ajim got the fever. his temperature was quite high. he became clingy and manja. wanted papa to dokong him always but want mama also. kesian sgt. muka pon dah kecut. as if he doesnt have the strength to do anything but do not want to lie down also. he didnt want to eat nor sleep but the medicine soothed him a bit. despite all that, baby ajim still nak sit in his walker at times. still ada hati to play his songs and move about.

saving the best for last, ajim became mr spots on friday. papa refused to admit it at first but saturday saw more spots and it was the measles for sure. so now he is covered by chalomine lotion and smells funny. hehe .. he has regained his strength tho cos the fever passed on thursday. after the spots came out, he became his usual self. mama dah ok sikit seein him active as ever and can now eat and smile. spots pon dah tak visible sgt but skin still not soft yet. on sunday, ajim still hafta stay home when mama n papa pg wedding uncle kirul and auntie rini in seremban. poor baby.

so what i got for my 1st mothers day was a cake and spots. very memorable. we didnt go out cos very not good for ajim but i am so blessed to have this child of mine and feel most grateful for having a chance to experience motherhood. nothing in the world will make me swap places. :)

ps. i'm typin usin mak lang's new pc. the keyboard has jawi letters so maybe i can type in jawi someday. like its possible.